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truthfully i'm quite disappointed because i'm not selected for OIAP beijing because this proves that i have something lacking compared to others. i'm glad i'm able to type this out because it does take a certain amount of courage for me (admitting failure, and it sucks when this blog is public and i need to rant). i need to find out what is lacking in me and improve it. it's sometimes so hard to stop comparing oneself with others. counting the number of failed attempts in going for what i want: youth flying club (that DAMN postcard), JYP audition(duno count or not), the tourism camp (leaders) and this.

okay, before i start emo-ing, i have to look on the bright side. i'll probably console myself that i'm still going to stay in the same class and most of us would probably be going OIAP together. also, anna to help me in my notes(shh!). and BAoc 2008. and i'm going to complete my driving before ssdc moves to woodlands. as well as complete 201 japanese enrichment. and spend my 19 birthday in singapore. and i'll probably think of more whenever i think about being busted out of OIAP beijing.

anyway, life cannot be always sunny and bright right? even rainbows{虹} comes after the rain. so for this, i will work hard!

since the start of the holiday, or the year, i felt that 2008 will be a year where i will look back into the past and probably see how much i've grown. i guess my sixth sense is pretty accurate because ever since the start of the holidays i've been very very busy(i'm missing the go-home-girl days). i've been going out with my secondary school friends so often reminiscing the past, laughing and crying. somehow, i would like to visit my past, kindergarden, primary school, secondary. if only our minds work like video recorder - to record memories and play it exactly like that. because many of my memories are so vague and blur like youtube quality. but nevermind, i'm glad that i have friends to fill up some of the gaps in between our lives and i'll fill up theirs whenever we start reminiscing the past.

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